I'm Back Finally...

After falling into old lazy habits recently, I am back to blogging again. As usual, I am keeping plenty busy with school and work. Due to California's budget crisis, there is some serious talk about CSU fees going up yet again! Financial aid is supposed to be increased as well, but who knows. The dream of a college education is slipping further and further away from the poor folk like me. I will hang in there as long as I can because I want to finally be done with school after all these years. On a personal front, my ex Bobby is becoming a big pain in my ass. Recently, he saw Chris and I at the gym, and figured out that this was the guy I was playing with. Even though Chris and I play it real cool in public, I guess it doesn't take a rocket scientist to see attraction. Bobby called me later and asked if I cheated on him with Chris while we were together. I told him not that it really mattered now, but I didn't do anything with Chris until after we broke up. Bobby then bluntly asked if I told Chris about my past STD incident. I told him to stay the f@ck out of my business and hung up the phone. Though he didn't really say it, I know he was totally implying that he might tell Chris just to be a spiteful prick. I don't know what the hell is up with Bobby. If he doesn't want me, fine, let it go and move on. He is not happy, so I guess I don't deserve to be happy myself. I sometimes really think he needs some professional help! Now I am thinking I need to be proactive with Chris. Even though we are still in a NSA relationship, we are still friends at the very least. I think if Bobby goes to Chris spouting off crap, it would probably freak him out. I plan to get tested again and get printed results. Then I will sit Chris down, tell him about my past, show that I am clean now, and that my psycho ex is on the rampage. So much drama to go through, but at least if I am forthcoming with Chris, Bobby has nothing to threaten me with. Are there other guys out there like me that have exes that just won't go away? If so, I am open to suggestions. Peace.

I'm Still Living The Single Life...

Well, I am back to school again this week. Boy that week off sure flew by! Bobby came over to my place Saturday afternoon so we could talk about things. I was still kind of in a state of shock from our last meeting. So we are on the couch talking about our feelings when he tells me how much he has missed me both in and out of bed, then proceeds to kiss me. Things start getting a little heated as he starts to undress me. I really wanted it, but I shocked myself and abruptly stopped things before they got to the point of no return. I was proud of myself as I thought with my big head instead of the little one lol. Seriously, it would have been so easy to sleep with Bobby but that wouldn't have solved anything except my horniness. I told Bobby that we needed to resolve things first and foremost. As we are talking, he tells me that he has thought of no one but me, etc and that he hasn't dated anyone. He then asked about me. I told him that I had messed around with one guy (Chris) since we broke up. If you could have seen the look on his face. All of sudden Bobby got a big attitude and asked how the hell I could get with another guy if I loved him...bla bla bla. WTF!?! I got all in his face and reminded him that HE broke up with me. We weren't on break or in a fight...he completely and totally ended things. Was I suppose to wait around and hope one day he would come back for me? That did it for me. I asked him to leave. His last words were "I thought I knew you better. I guess I was wrong about you." Whatever. How could he act like I did something wrong? After he left I was so angry, but ended up having a good cry. I know this guy has too many issues and is full of drama, but it still hurt me. I did love him and will miss what we had, but I need to be strong and move on. That was my weekend.