Thursday, February 5, 2009

And Then It Hit Me...

As usual, some time has passed since my last blog post. I kept telling myself (and others) that the reason I don't post often is that I am simply too busy. Yes I am busy with school, work, and my man. But if truth be told, I don't post regularly because the blog thing intimidates me a little still. I go out and read other peoples' blog postings, and I am impressed by their dedication, but also am amazed by their exceptional writing skills. They can always seem to make even the most mundane life event seem interesting. I simply need to stop worrying about writing some award-winning novel everytime, and just go with the flow and write from the heart.

Anyhow, now finally to the subject of my post. Yesterday, I was with my man at school as usual. We were getting some food, and as I watched him in line, I was overcome by a sudden and intense feeling. I kept staring at him and couldn't get over how incredibly hot he looked. I was thinking to myself how lucky I was that this awesome guy was mine! I had this unexplainable and strong desire to be with him both physically and emotionally right then and there. This wasn't my usual horniness talking either - believe me, I know what horny feels like. Long story short, we went back to his place and had the most extraordinary intimate encounter ever! The physical part was mind-blowing for sure, but we also totally connected on such a personal level. Afterward, while basking in the afterglow, I told Chris that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I hadn't planned to say that. I just spoke my heart. He didn't say much, so I got a bit nervous that he was worried I was pressing for a commitment. Things are fine today, but I kept going over and over in my mind why I was having these crazy intense feelings and why I felt like I couldn't control them. It wasn't until I chatted up with my friend Paul that the obvious answer was right there in front of me. I was truly in love for the first time in my life. I was married once, had more sex partners than I care to remember, and even had a boyfriend before Chris. But I never had feelings like this before for anyone else until now. I am so madly, deeply in love with Chris and it hit me like a freight train! What a feeling. I guess I am a late bloomer, but better late than never =)