Spring Break Drama

Lately I feel like I am living in a soap opera or something. This week I am on Spring Break from school, so I finally have some free time! Last night, my boy toy / friend Chris came over to my place after the gym. He told me that he was horny as hell and wanted to play again, so of course I was happy to oblige. We were in the middle of some hot fun when my cell phone rang. Naturally I ignored it as I was pre-occupied with other things. Chris and I still haven't "gone all the way" yet, but damn, being in bed with him is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo incredibly hot. Anyhow, after the 2-man party ended and Chris left, I checked my voice mail message. It was Bobby, my ex...the guy that I have not spoken to since being so unceremoniously dumped. In the message, he said that he wanted to come over and talk and that it was real important. My mind was racing. What on earth could he possibly want after all this time? Do I just ignore him or what? My curiousity got the better of me, so I sent him a text message and told him to come over to tell me what he had to say. By this time, I felt so many things...curiousity, anxiety, nervousness, and anger all at the same time. He arrived to my place about a half hour after I sent him the text. We sit down on the couch and he just starts crying like crazy. I ask him what's wrong and he told me that him leaving me was the stupidest thing he has ever done and that he misses me so much and wants me back. WTF!?!? I was in total shock, but I finally asked him how he could end our relationship so abruptly and coldly the way he did? I told Bobby that he really hurt me bad when he acted like I was yesterdays garbage when I was honest about my past. He told me that when he broke up with me, it wasn't because of me or what I did, but rather because of his own personal issues. Bobby said that his family was totally against him "choosing" to be gay and he got lots of pressure and threats of disownment if he didn't clean up his act as they put it. He moved out of his parents house and is now staying with a co-worker friend of his. With tears in his eyes still, Bobby said he wanted a second chance with me. As one could imagine, I didn't know what to think or how to act. He grabbed my hand and said he would wait for as long as I needed him to. As we walked to the door, he told me that he loved me, and kissed me on the lips, and I admit I didn't push him away. I told him that I needed time to absorb all that had happened. I feel so torn now and don't know what to do. This guy was a total jerk to me, yet I still care for him. He was my first serious relationship after my marriage ended. I've got lots of thinking to do...